It's all about time...

I don't know what to share today... Hehehe..

Just now I went to my friend's room in other block. To send forms that they want from me... And on my way to her room, I met with someone. He greet me and told me that I'm too serious while walking. He told me to relax. I smiled and stopped in front of him. I said, I can’t walk slowly and relax…hehehehe… Then, I continued walking… Huhuhu, you know what? Now I know, I’m too serious while walking and not relax. I always walk faster to catch on the time… Time is walking even faster than me and never waits even for a minute. That’s why I have to be on time. Are u agree with me?

Ghost Story...

Now, I'm going to tell u a story... Scary story... But I'm going to tell u in Bahasa k, hehehehe...

Pada 1 hari, makcik sy dan kawan2 nya nak balik ke rumah. Mereka dalam perjalanan dari Airport Tawau nak ke rumah mereka di daerah lain. Kawan makcik saya punya suami yang memandu malam tu. Kereta yang mereka gunakan; Kancil dan ke semua mereka ada empat org.. (Hahahaha, skemanya sy brcerita)... 

K la, x payah nk skema2 k. Dorang smua dlm kereta tu ada 4 org. Yg drive tu suami kwn mkck sy, sblhnya istrinya, kt blkg pulak mkck sy dn sorg kwnnya...

Sampai d suatu kawasan ni.. kwn mkck sy ni (yg duk dpn) trnampak anjing hitam d tepi jalan. Anjing tu nak capai ekornya kt blkg... Org tua2 ckp, ni petanda kurang baik. Tdk lama kemudian, lepas je lalu kwsn jmbatan dia ternampak lembaga putih lalu depan kereta dorg. Tiba2 je, dorg rasa cm langgar ssuatu dan kreta dorg tu brhenti scra tiba2. Dorg pn trkejut la... Pasangan suami istri ni pn turun la p tgk mana tau dorg ada langgar ssuatu... Yg mkck sy dan kwn sorg ni duk je dlm keta, seram sejuk da..rasa x sdap hati...Pas tu, yg istri tu masuk la kt dalam keta... Dia pndang ke arah bhgn blkg keta tmpt mkck sy dduk. Dia pandang je, tenung je ke arah mkck sy tnpa ckp pa2.. Mkck sy rasa takut la, dia pn tnya la kwn dia tu "Napa kak pndang sy cm tu?"... tdk lama pas tu, istri tu ajak mkck dn kwnnya turun dr keta. Dia ckp, "sinilah kita d luar, bagus lg...sinila kita d luar..."(lbey kurang cm tu la)... 

Mula2 mkck sy x mau...dia xnk kluar..lama2 mkck sy akur dn kwnnya pn ikut kluar gak dr keta... Pas tu, istri tu crta la pa yg dia nmpk sbnrnya... Sbnrnya, ada sumthing duk kt tgh2 mkck sy dan kwnnya...huhhuhu.. Pa yg sumthing tu?? benda tu la...putih..dn rambutnya panjang...Benda tu duk kt tgh2 dn tenung ke arah sate kwn mkck sy...dorg takut sgt..yelah, dah la mlm plak tu...kwsn tu sunyi jgk..Jd, mkck sy kol husband nya dn btau prkr tu... Pkck sy pn suru la dorg buang sate tu... Yelah, kn benda tu suka daging...

Dorg pn saling suruh menyuruh nk p buang sate dlm keta tu... Akhirnya, mkck sy mgalah... Dia msuk dlm keta tu dn buang seketul je daging sate tu (mkck sy segan, yelah sate tu bkn dia yg pnya klu nk buang byk2)...Mkck sy buang la kt blkg keta... Istri tu dpt tgk bnda2 halus ni, jd dia ckp benda tu tgk je mkck sy time mkck sy ambil sate tu. Dan....dia ikut dan tgk ja mkck sy buang sate tu...

Tak lama pas tu, datang la adik kpada suami tu...Dia bw D-max dn tarik keta Kancil tu. Sate yg tinggal tu d letak d blkg keta D-max. Time nk tarik kancil tu, rasa berat sangat2... Tak dapat nak tarik pn, cm kna tekan brek je. Jd, driver D-max tu pn ckp la jgn tekan brek. Driver Kancil ni plak ckp, dia xda tekan brek lgsg pn... Rupa2nya bnda tu mc duk kt blkg keta Kancil tu.. Dorg sdaya upaya la mnarik keta tu, dapat gak gerak... Apbila lepas je jambatan trakhir, akhirnya bnda tu xda dah...

Moral of the story...

----Jgn bw daging esp. yg mentah tgh mlm d tmpt yg sunyi dn prjlnan yg jauh...

Things happen to me...

Today, I don’t feel very well… I was so tired and just lay down on my bed. I’m trying to motivate myself not to think of what happen actually. I’m struggling to make myself strong to face all these challenges. Yes, I can’t lie that I haven't forgotten him… my heart still saying that I love him and need him. Sometime I asked myself, is it true love? Or I just want him to accompany me and never make me lonely? I’m very confused. But now, I don’t have to think about it anymore.

All I have to do now is, motivate myself and be strong. It’s only 3 weeks left for me to struggle for my final exam. I need to remember my uncle’s advised to study properly and get a good result. He told me that he already help me to get scholarship, so why not I pay and give him a good result as the return. My entire big families also believe me and want the best from me. Because they know, I can do it!

I need to be ego with myself, I need to be matured and I need to be myself. No need to cooperate with someone that you don’t like or fill most of their time with enjoy only. My father said that, he also same liked me when he was a student. All his friends let him done by himself all the tasks and assignments given, but my father just let them ‘copy and paste’ of his works. When they sat for the exam, my father knew what to do and can answer all questions properly with A as the result, but his friends can’t answer the questions properly and can’t get like what my father’s get.

Remember my father’s advised at the airport, “Belajar bagus2, sembahyang”… then, when I’m already reached Terminal 2 KK, he SMSed me, “Smart study and pray”… Yes I will my beloved father… For my beloved mother, she also advised me to study properly... she who always took care of me and prepared anything I want, I love u….

Aarghhh...

What happen to me?? Why I have to face person like him??? I hate him so much!!!!!! He treats me like I'm nothing to him. My dear friend, I think I’m in stage one. Just now, once again I’ve told him to break this relation. I told him don’t find me anymore…. I was so angry to him; he never wants to understand me. I know how busy he was at this time but so do I. Even I’m too busy, but I still find free time to contact and be with him. How easy it was to answer the phone, I don’t think it’s hard to pick up a call… he never wants to answer my calls, sometimes I even call him about 30 to 40 calls a day, but he didn’t want to answer. So, what’s the point to be together if he acts like that!!! Now…today… I feel extremely loneliness and helpless… He makes me down!!! For him, I’m not so important… if I’m nothing to him so why he didn’t just let me go?? Why he makes me suffer like this??!!! Why?? I’m so tired to cry like this… every day I show my big smiles in front of people but deep inside my heart I’m actually crying… No one can understand my feelings and know what I face and feel… It’s really pain……..

Morning in my hometown..

I feel fresh through out my day here.. Everything is fresh and I don't have to feel rushed just like in my hostel. I feel comfortable and easy.... Looking at the plants, flowers and all nice view outside my house make me feel calm and fresh.

Fish pond outside my house

Flowers outside my house

Third day in my hometown...

It was my third day being here… Today, we’ve received many guests which were my uncle and auntie with their children. There were surprised to know that I went home. It’s not yet holiday but I’m at home already, hehehe. There’s nothing much I can do today beside rest. Since yesterday, I’m only kept eating, eating and eating… Hopefully I can gain weight so that I can reach normal BMI…huhuuhu.

Last night, we’re going to Giant. After performed Maghrib prayer, we’re going to Giant to buy things to be eaten..huhuhu.. Eat again… We’re there for one hour maybe and look into things that we needed. My younger brother pulls me to follow him. As usual, he will pull me to take buns that he wants and pay for him. Huh… so lucky my little bro to have me as his sister..hehehhe… I’m helping him to get his buns then paid for him. I saw Mexican bun, it made me hungry. With no hesitate, I get it and paid. Huhuhu.. I like that bun because it was so delicious. The first time I like that bun was when my family and I were in holiday at KL. After I paid for my bun, I saw my father took some burgers. I felt like wanted to eat burger too. So, I get one for me too. Hehehhehe…

After paid everything, we’re heading to outside of Giant. My mom with my little bro bought some fried fish balls. Again, I requested my mom to buy some for me too… huhuhu.. Then, we went to the outside of the Giant building. I saw cheap ice cream was sold there…hehehe. Well guest what?? Huhuhu..I went to that stall and bought an ice cream cup. Hahaha.. I’m really enjoyed my day with eat..eat.. and eat.. At home, eat again.. Fried rice with steam chicken… My mom cooked the fried rice while I cooked the steam chicken with my own recipe, hehehehe... I’m full!!!

Delicious ice cream cup and steam chicken that I cooked :)

Huhuhu..

Second day in my hometown..huhuhu.. Today, I can rest peacefully… when I opened my eyes; I saw my family’s face not the stress environment at my hostel…hehehe. Early in the morning, I feel fresh and start my day with smiles… My father was so busy repairing on his car. He has four cars and one of them is Kancil, needs to be repaired, renewed and repainted, hehehehe… This pictures show u how bad the condition of that car...

Inside of car (all items inside the car has been taken off)

From left side and tyre

Right side of car

Don't u think it's an amazing car?? hehehe..

Home Sweet Home...

I was so happy...hehe. Now I'm at home with my family. Watching TV while chatting with my mom... Gossips, hehe well u know women and girls...

Here I want to share some stories with u... It was 11.25am already, my flight was scheduled on 12.20pm. Air Asia always wanted their customers to check-in 1 hour before departure time. I tought that I'm late going to the airport, because I have to check-in 1 hour earlier. I was so afraid that I'm going to miss that flight again like few years ago. Thank God I still can check-in and proceed my plan to go home. Alhamdulillah..Huhu... When I was in the flight, I'm taking this picture to share with u all..

Pic taken inside the flight..

Feeling so well can reached home safely... My father and I didn't tell my mom, my brother and sister that I'm going back. When I reached home, I can heard my mom's voices inside the house, called my name with  happy nice sound... Touching and sooooo happy at that time... I can see how happy she was when she looked at me...and so do I, I was so happy too. After taken my lunch, my father took my sister and I to the town. I spent my time in the car looking around of this town, there's not so much changes in this few months since I'm not here. We're going to a shop and bought few things. I was just took any items that I want to take...hehe.. as usually, not me who pay all the items but my father..hehe. So no need to worry if my money is not enough. Now, I feel sleepy... Going to sleep first......ZZZzzzzz... Nite!

Update..huhu

Tonight, he’s still with his ego… Don’t want to contact me... I know that he never feel sorry and guilty with what he did to me… He doesn’t miss me and for him, works are more important than me. Huh!

Ahh! Forget about it! In the afternoon, I’m going to the laboratory to do some works. I’m fully enjoyed doing my practical alone… I have to do dilution, pour plate, titration and the acidity test. It takes time about one and half an hour to do all that methods properly. I feel very excited and confident as I can do it by myself. Hehe, before this I’m afraid to light up the Bunsen burner using lighter. But now, I can do it! Hehehe… Such an improvement to myself!

Then I’m having my lunch at 6pm (don't be suprised k), it was so fantastic to have chocolate + peanut waffle. Wow! It was so delicious!! Nyum…nyum… Huhu… Don’t be jealous k. Here I put some of photos that I’ve taken while I’m eating.

Chocolate waffle..nyum..nyum..

After that, I'm going to my class coz I'm having a replacement class. I walked alone but myself and feel sooo full. hehe.. Feeling great walking with these shoes…

Adidas..

Hehehe

I'm so busy two to three weeks ago..huh. Don't have so much to clean my table,hehe... What a mess..fuh!

 Tomorrow I'm going back to my hometown.. Yes!! It's not yet holiday but I want to spend my time there to find some calmness and also eat well.. ;) I've discussed with my father actually first before I got his permission to go home. He thought that I have problems, that's why I want to go back. Actually, it's true. There's a lot of problems here that I've to face it alone. I'm going home so that I could make myself calm and far from the busiest day... Just for a few days... I'm taking along my stuffs that couldn't or not being used anymore. So that I'm using these boxes to put all my things..hehe.

Last night, my friend and I were going to have our time together. Since this week was our busiest week, so we end up this week with enjoying together our free time..hehe. We're going to Old Town and have our lunch there. At that time, it was 6.00pm and at that time I'm just taking my lunch and dine which come out with dunch? lunine? hehehehe. I was so hungry and finished up my Nasi Ayam Rendang with Mirinda Strawberry. After that, we bought some things from the nearest store. Before we're having our time for movie, we have to find boxes first. At that time, we're asking at that store either thay can give us boxes from their store that they don't used...their answer is cannot. Fuh! So we tried to find it from another place. Until 1 shop, that sell books give that boxes for free to me.. Lucky! If not, I have to BUY that boxes from them..huh. My friend said, that 1 of two guys which work at that shop is cute. Hehe.. and she said that we have to show them our cute faces first to get that boxes..hehehe. Funny!

It was great that I've seen Alice in Wonderland..huhu. Johny Depp..that movie was interesting and can make me out of feeling afraid of adventures in Alice story that I've heard since I was a kid. That movie was so funny and interesting...

Johny Depp as Hatter

Red Queen [scary face :( ]

The Starring - Alice

The White Queen

Better u watch it now!!!

Fate...

Today.. Early in the morning, I already get anger with him. He don’t want to treat me well just like the other couple who treat their gf so well.. He’s just doing whatever he want to do, and don’t ever think about other’s feelings. It was my fault to choose him as my bf. He didn’t ever try to understand me and be a good bf to me. Even though he already ruins my life with “fitnah” that he made on me, I still can stand behind him and stay together. Why?? Am I too stupid as I can’t be an independent girl? I don’t know. I have tried so many times to break this relationship, as I couldn’t be patient with all he has done to me but he refused. I must be brave and be independent. Coz if I am too dependent with him, it’s hard for me to let him go. He doesn’t want to let me go, but now the decision is in my hand. I need to still go forward, don’t ever look back after I’ve made a decision. He always like to insult me, avoid me, doesn’t care me, gone mad with me, release his tension to me and everything that make me always sad and stress... my fate...

Second blog..

This is my second blog.. My first blog was not activated since early of 2009 if I'm not mistaken.. Here, I want to share my feelings, problems, experiences, interesting story, current issues and many more.. I want to express my own feelings and release my tension so that I don't have to cry in the middle of night. It makes me look ugly u know..with big dark circles around my eyes..hehehe. Hope, I can manage my stress well and live happily.. Glad and nice to hear stories from u too ;)